Roxie

My husband and I bought Roxie when she was 3 months old. she was still like a child to us. Here is a picture of when we first got her:

And her is one of her from last winter:


She was my husbands dog and man did he love her. Anyone that has actually met the 2 of them can vouch for that! But we are sad to say that when we moved to Germany we have had MAJOR issues getting her here with us. My husband mad the heart wrenching decision to give her to a family friend. We know she will be very well taken care of, its just sad. My husband is pretty hurt by this so I have decided to get him a new dog. He always said after Roxie is gone I want to get a English Bulldog, I personally think they are pretty ugly dogs. But its not for me! I found a lady that is selling them and I am getting the dog tomorrow or thursday but I can't decide on which one. Please help!!! sorry the image is small thats how the lady sent them and I have no idea how to enlarge without making them blurry.
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He doesn't know we are getting one, I want to surprise him!

Baby Fever

A while back I wrote that I went to the doctor because my husband and I decided we wanted to start trying to have a baby, but I was concerned because I am very irregular. Well, after a quick blood test we found out we do have a issue. I have been diagnosed with something called Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome. Which, basically mean I have high blood sugar and testosterone levels in my body causing me to have little to no ovulation's a year. I have a doctors appointment on the economy here in a few weeks to find out if I have cysts on my ovaries or not, either way PCOS is not curable but is treatable. Right now I am on some pills to regulate my sugar levels which is supposed to cause my periods to start, but no luck so far. I am pretty heart broken, I really want a baby. My husband is deploying next June so when we decided to start trying he would have been here for the first 4 months or so of the babys life then been deployed. Well now 3 months later he probably wouldnt be here for the birth! Now I'm scared to even go through with it! But I still really want to have a baby and I don't think I want to wait until he gets back!!! We have been through so much in the last few months and I really don't want to give up on having a baby quite yet. The next step is taking Clomid, which will help make my eggs larger and more frequent....which gives me the possibility of TWINS!! Oh my! Wish me luck. :-)

Domestic Violence

I grew up around domestic violence and I don't remember much about my life before I was 15 years old, I blocked it out, for good reason though. I just dont get it! I don't get why women stay with a man who beats her. Why do you want to put makeup on or wear glasses to cover your bruises? Why do you want to make excuses for him? Why? Whats worse is the mothers that allow there husbands to beat the living crap out of them while there child is watching, learning and thinking this is how it is, this is how I will be treated or will treat some one some day. Don't you want to be your self, make mistakes and know that your husbands just going to laugh and say "oh hunny" instead of fearing where and when hes going to lash out at you next. I just got some new neighbors and they only got married because she got pregnant and figured a baby can make everything okay and they will make it work. This may work sometimes but not always. They fight constantly! He blew threw all there money on booze and hotel rooms before her and her son moved out to Germany. He was OBVIOUSLY cheating on her, and she knows it! Yet, shes still with him. If she say no to XXX then he forces her, pins her down and does his thing, she has bruises from him pinning her down! Can you believe that?!?! Her way of dealing with all this is to cut everything out of his life, no drinking (okay I can see this), no smoking, no fun! She has cut everything out of his life and is controlling every move he makes. Of course he is going to sneak around and do things behind your back, but then she finds out confronts him and then the fighting begins!! I just do not get it!! I had a friend that her husband was a a** also and would beat her and stuff would he would get drunk and she always made excuses for him, he even pushed me at on point! He had a history of violence and I have never really liked him, but thats besides the point. I will never understand because my husband rarely even yells at me...I have to really push him to even do that! All I can say is I have it good and I LOVE my husband!! Has anyone been a abusive relationship? Does anyone have any advice I can give her? She confides in me and tells me these things but then brings her husband to MY house. Am I just supposed to smile at him and say come on in, when all I want to do is rip him a new one and tell him to get the hell out of my house!

Update

It has been FOREVER since I posted! Not a whole lot has been going on. The last time I posted I was trying to decide what to do, go to my sisters graduation, my besties wedding, or a long overdue honeymoon. Well, shortly after I posted it my amazing little sister myspaced me and told me to take her out the equation and then choose, she said do what I want and that I better show up to her highschool graduation! I talked to my hubby and he told me to go to Carlas wedding. We had a quick and simple wedding so we plan to renew our wedding vows so all of our friends and family can be there to see it and we will just go on our honey moon after that. So, with all that said I went to Carlas wedding! I am very glad that I did. I just got back form the states a few days ago and loved everyminute of being there. I started off by seing the 3 loves of my life Emily, Madilynne, and Kaydence (my neices)! The first weekend was Carlas bachlorette party which was a BLAST, of course not drama free but we had a blast in the end. Then I spent the next couple weeks preparing for the wedding....it was very stressful and reminded me of why I eloped! It was all worth it in the end the wedding was beautiful and the only thing missing was my husband. One thing I did do when I was there was get a tattoo with my little sister and Ashley, I hurt REALLY bad, but I love it! I got Live.Laugh.Love on the top/side of my right foot. Here are some pictures from my trip. Well, my computer wont let me upload very many so heres just a few.

I'm torn....

My friend Carla is getting married in July, my sister is graduating high school in June of this year, and I want to go on a vacation with my husband at the end of July. I don't know what to do! If I go home to the states I can't go to the graduation and the wedding since they are over a month apart and I can't get that much time off. Whose heart do I break?? My sister or one of my best friends?!?! My husband and I had a last minute wedding and I didn't even have a wedding dress, so we have always wanted to go on a honeymoon and we want to go to Italy or France. We have been saving and finally have the money. So do I give up and put my honey moon on the back burner again? Oh man I don't know! I will feel guilty no matter what I choose! What would you do??

Hello, Hello....

It has been forever since I posted!!! Things have been crazy around here. School has been super busy, then I was trying to get a job, the weather has been super nice, and the best part is our stuff came!!! YAY no more cardboard bed....I also decided to have my car sent over here, so I have been studying for the drivers test so I can get my drivers license and drive it when it gets here!! Man, I miss my car. Well, other than that not much has been going on just working out and doing school. Last night I went out with Val and Sigmon and we decided to try Mexican food. It was really, really good. I was surprised since there was veggies in my enchiladas and only like 2 peices of meat and my chips and sour cream wasnt like home at all, but it was all really good!! We went to Loco's in Weiden...mmmm.....yummy! Oh my I almost forgot on our way home there were like seriously a million HUGE toads that looked like they wanted to lick our faces off!!! Then we I got home I was taking the dog out and a GIANT toad jumped at me and actually tried to lick my face off!! I screamed at the top of my lungs as it crushed one of my flowers in my garden that I just finished making pretty the other day. I made my husband stand in the door way till the dog was done! Let me make a list of all the things I miss from the states:

1. "Excuse me" I'm not saying we don't have rude people at home, after all I am from the Seattle area! But man are some of these Germans rude!

2. Tims Cascade jalapeno chips

3. Bug Spray...there are ants and flippen spiders every where!! Why can't I spray and kill them?

4. Being able to wash a large load of laundry

5. Being able to wash a large load of dishes

6. Driving my car!!

7. Being able to read a sign

8. Stopping for directions...I wish I spoke German

9. Being able to cross the street (walking) without fearing my life

10. Being yelled at by someone and understanding what the heck I did wrong

11. Not having to play charades everytime I need something and we can't understand eachother

12. Weed killer

I'm sure theres more but I can't think!! I will write a list of my loves later...I have ALOT of those. :) But I have a TON of homework to do!

Hobby continued...

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Hobby

About 2 months ago I was telling Kim how much I hated staying hom and not working because I was bored out of my mind!! She told me to get a hobby..Well I know a few people who do the digital scrap booking so I decided to join in the craze!! Here are a few I did I like the ones of my neices but Im not to sure about the one of the "swangers" but oh well. Enjoy...

My first night off post!!

I ditched out on the FRG, girls night out that I was so excited for and ventured off post with my new friends Val and Sigmond. They took us to a little Greek restrauant not to far from post here in Vilseck. I really enjoyed the food, I had this chicken in a wine sauce with potatoes and carrots....so good! It was just amazing!! I almost ordered something I knew I would like but they convinced me otherwise! So glad they did. Then we went into the bar/pool table area and had a few drinks while brandon and sig played pool. I had this drink called the pain killer and if it wasnt like 6 euro I could of had a million! I think I just liked the umbrella and frilly, sparkly thing that came with it! The only crappy part about German bars is they can smoke and I swear everyone in Germany smokes! Me being a non smoker will just have to deal with the cancer later!!! Damn smokers....but I would open the windows so I could breath and the stupid owner kept closing it! Any ways, after that we went to another bar...it was karokee night! Well, I had to pee really bad and I hate public bathrooms....but I REALLY had to go. The bathroom was down stairs, it looked like something straight out of the movie hostile! Scared the crap out of me!!! They didnt even have signs on the doors so you could tell which was which! After I did my buisness, I came out the bathroom and there was a condom dispenser, so I'm looking at it and theres a freaking "portable pussy" dispenser!! I couldn't believe it...Of course I had to know what it was so I forked out the 4 euro!! So damn expensive and bought one! HAHA...it was a plastic thing you blew up and you know they did there thing with it, it even came with personal lube!!! Oh my it was so funny. Brandon carried it around all night, I think he was really attached to it! Well after a few more drinks we headed back to post and went over to Vals house. Had a few more drinks and played some cards. Then we stumbled back home, the whole to buildings down! It was a fun night. We woke up this morning did some grocery shopping and then hung around the house. We went to our neighbors house played a few intense wii games and now we are back at home hanging out with each other! So far its been a great weekend!

I have to say I have really loved being here in Germany I have met some great people and just really been enjoying myself. I dont want to be one of those wives that no one wants to be around or who sits around and pouts about being away from friends and family. I plan on taking full advantage and enjoy myself no matter where we end up!

busy tones

I get very annoyed when people dont answer there phone! I mean I know people have lives outside of me and I don't expect them to jump when I call (but I defiently wouldn't mind if you did). But when you are trying to get a hold of someone and there phone is busy...that is a different story! I have been trying to call the health clinic all morning, to get my results, and it has been busy! I mean come on its the 21st century! Heard of call waiting, or an answering machine! You have a hundred different contact numbers and every single one is busy for the last 3 hours! It ridiculous! Thats all I had to complain about today!!!

Promotion, kids, and a girls night out!

I am very proud of my husband he was promoted, he is now an E-2! Although, he is still at the bottom of totem pole..he deserved it!!! He works hard everyday and I am super proud of him! He hasn't officially been able to put his patch on but he is being paid and has been told it will happen! honestly, the pay is the most important part lol :) He's happy and that makes me happy!! Also, my husband and I have decided we want to "try" for a baby!! Yay! I have had VERY irregular periods for as long as I can remember. I used to love the fact that I could go 3 months without it, I took it as a blessing! Well now, not so much, kind of need that to have a baby! So I went to the doctor to get something to regulate myself...the doc was very concerned and thinks I might not be ovulating at all! He came even more concerned when I said I haven't used birth control since I was 17/18 years old and that we used no kind of protection! He ordered blood test and sent my husband to get tested! Jeeze...what was supposed to be a quick trip to the doctors to help us get pregnant turned into a stressfull and nerve racking trip! I get my test results back tomorrow and Brandon went to get his "little guys" tested this morning. Hopefully, everything comes back good! Kids are so important to my husband and I would be devasted if I was the cause of him not have an offspring! On a happier note we are having a girls night out on Friday and I am really excited! I get to meet the rest of the spouses that I havent met yet. We are going to the tea garden in graf. Its a chinese restraunt...I ordered chinese one night and it was nothing like home! But I have heard good things about it and I'm excited just to get out of the house and hang out with some girls! Plus I can always stop by Burger King if I don't like the food! :)

4 day weekend!

Brandon had a 4 day weeekend this weekend, it was nice! Friday we had a BBQ at our neighbor Travis and Stephanies. They were really nice and it was good to hang out with people our age!! There was another couple there but I dont remember there names, they are PCSing so it doesnt really matter...Then Saturday we went shopping to try and find some blinds, well we got some...but of course they are the wring size!! Errr.....so annoying! Then we came home and cleaned house...figured out our dishwasher is broken and its not that I don't know how to use it. LOL! Yesterday we went bowling with Sarah and David and there kiddos..it was fun I sucked as usual. They had some dinner cooking in the crockpot at home so we came over had a few drinks and played RUMNIKUB!! Love that game! Now we are just sitting at home watching brothers in arms on dvd....having a relaxing day! I guess thats all I have to write about!!

What did I eat before bed?!

I had the WORST dream of my life last night! I even woke up with tears on my cheeks! It started out with Brandon getting some top secret mission to some school, not sute where at, and for some reason I was to go with! Anyways, there was this "guy" that glowed green, like he was radio active or something....well, he lived in a utility closet outside of the school. Apparently, they knew he was going to attack. So, after we got there they put the school on lock down while they got a strategy together on how to take him out. Well, this guy had like super strength and was shaking the whole school, like an earth quake (but couldnt break the school locks, to open the doors)! They were serving pizza or something, cause brandon HAD to go to the car to get dairy pills (hes lactose intolerant) and after a half hour or so...he didnt come back! Then the green glowing monster thing, who also must be very smart! Decided to stack the cars on top of eachother! Well, the army men being creative as they are tied long ropes together and then found a spear (maybe history classroom?) and tied it to then end! Then 2 men sacrificed themselves and swong out the window and stabbed him! Which, killed him! Apparently, army men dont have guns in my dreams! Anyway, the sergeant went in search of my husband and found him! Well, what was left....he had no legs and was blind! And the lady that broke the news to me all she said was it going to be had to have sex!!! What the hell!!! What did I eat, cause I NEVER want to eat it again!! It was terrible and scary! When they found him he had gotten distracted cause he found a young child that he rescued.
At least in my dreams hes still my hero. :)

I live really close to Mike Lake and there is this duck that must be lost or something! He quacks, every night around 10 and every morning around 5! But its not a normal quack, its a high pitch cry for help! I have yet to actually see this duck...but I know hes out there! He is VERY annoying and I wish he would hurry up and find his way home!

Grandpa

His surgery went smoothly! He eneded up only have a double bypass and a pace maker put in and it only was a 2 hour surgery rather than a 4 hour, which was expected! He is responding to the nurses and they are hoping to take the resperator out by the end of the day! I am so relieved!! I was up all night, waiting for my family to call me! Which, they didn't I ended up calling them VERY early (my time) this morning to make sure everything was good. Ah...what a relief...now I need a nap! LOL

German Food

Anyone that knows me, knows I absolutely hate change! So I knew (and everyone else knew) that moving to another country would be difficult! We had a lunch date with a couple we met here, David and Sarah, at a placed on posted called the "Katina". We went there for the weekly Monday special, chicken cour doun blue, but with my luck they were all out. So Brandon order me a schnitzel sandwich...it was pork (i think) on a really hard bun, with mayo, tomato, and lettuce. It wasn't too bad, I just couldnt really eat it! I have this odd fear of my teeth falling out if I eat things that are too tough, on the bone, or on the cob...so I kinda took a few bits and pushed it to the side! The fries were mighty delicous though! LOL!! Anyways, we are finally getting into a routine and I am starting to meet new people and enjoy myself. I have my first FRG meeting tomorrow and I have no idea what that even is, I was just told that I needed to go, so I am. I'm actually pretty nervous about the whole thing. I hate being in a group with a bunch of people I don't know! I'm sure I will be fine...hopefully. My Grandpa is in his surgery as I type! I really hope everything goes well...I will update you as I know more.

Germany

Wow! I haven't written on her in a while...Well, my passport ending up coming the Saturday before we left. So I was able to fly over and be with my husband, which made me extremely excited! We landed safely after a 9 hour flight, then went on to our 4 hour bus ride to Vilseck. We stayed in a hotel for about a week, which was SO boring, I had nothing to do all day since Brandon was working. But we got our house pretty quickly, and I keep hearing people we got REALLY lucky. Our house is a duplex 2 bedroom, 1.5 bath and fairly big! I will take it! I forgot how much I loved having my own place and living with Brandon. Once my stuff gets here I will be even happier.
We havent done a whole lot since we got here we went to Amberg, and Graffenwoehr this weekend. Probably wont leave the base again till I learn a little German! It was very stressful, we got lost and it was terrible trying to figure out where to go and how to get back on the correct train! But it was fun...just don't want to do it again!

In other news, my dad called me and told me my Grandpa is in the hospital. He was having chest pain and just to be safe he went to the hospital. He had an agioplasty, and they found 4 blockages in his heart. He is have a quadruple bypass surgery tomorrow. I'm having a hard time with this my grandma passed away a few months ago and I just can't handle loosing him too! Also, knowing that I'm so far away from him and can't be there when he wakes up suck too!

Okay, well I dont have a whole lot today I will update as soon as I start to "settle" in.

My new look....

Jennie just spent the last 2 or so hours re decorating my blog! I finally changed the name the idea came from Kim and Jennie so I'm happy about it! I love it! It's so freaking cute.....dontcha think?!?!

Any who...my passport still hasnt come in. I'm crossing my fingers that it will be here by Friday at 2pm. I'm sure it will though, I called last Wendsday and they said it was "a week or so out". So I should be good. If it doesn't come back in time I won't be heart broken, it just means more time with my friends and family. I have been playing musical houses! We spent a week at Brandon's dad, yesterday and tonight and Jenns and then tomorrow at Carla's and then who knows after that! I don't like not having a home....soon enough I guess! Well, anyway I didn't have to much to write.

Goodnight!

bored.....

I have been at my father in laws all week! I am so ready to go home. I like him and all its just he either wants to be at the bar or at home sleeping! I'm bored out of my mind! We are leaving early tomorrow morning, so excited! Even though we have nothing or no where to go home too, the movers came and packed everything up. We are droping our car off in tacoma and our cells are being turned off! Its all so official and finally hitting me that we ARE moving. Holy smokes!!! I am really excited though and can hardly wait! I will post picks and stuff as soon as I have internet! I wonder where we will go first?! Brandon will have a few days when we first get there so I want to do something.

I really should be doing homework.....

but I am the ultimate procrastinator! I have done only the BARE minimum lately and really need to buckle down. I want to be a teacher for 2nd graders! Many people mistake my feeling of not wanting to have a child with the fact that I must not like children. This is not the case....I LOVE children, i have nieces and absolutely adore them. My thought is there are so many children out there that have no parents, no family, or the just have really crappy ones. Why should i bring another child into the world, when I can help another one?!? My husband on the other hand feels the complete opposite! (and yes we did discuss this before we were married and knew our feelings before marriage, and yes we still got married!) He doesn't think he could love a child that wasn't his, no he's not a monster and he is in LOVE more than anyone I know with his nieces and 5 year old brother. He just really wants one of his own, I'm just not quite there yet. I think we have finally come up with a compromise....we will have 1 maybe 2 of our own, and since we can't just test out adopting and see how he feels about it we are going to become foster parents! I'm pretty excited about it. Of course, we have a lot of research to do and I've heard that the system can be very exhausting....it will be worth it!

On another note we got our official orders for Germany. We are leaving on February 23rd and will be in Germany the following day. I'm so excited...for some reason I feel guilty about being excited. I think it's because I will be really far from my friends and family and will be missing a lot of family things (we have 4 weddings this summer that we will be missing). We have to fly to Texas to catch our flight to Germany and since we have a dog who has never been on a plane or even in a car for more than a few hours we are going to fly in on Saturday. This way she will be on a plane for a few hours and realize she will live and we will be there when she lands. I'm gunna try and ease her in a little! i think we will sedate her too, cause 15 hours is a long time!

Well, I better get back to homework.

oh and ps i need some idease for a clever name for my blog. "The Swangers" is so boring!

I know i'm a little behind the curve ball....

I saw a few people do this and I usually don't do this kind of stuff! But it looked fun! I am going to make a list of all the things I want to accomplish in 2009...This year is going to be a whole new experience for me! I'm excited and I can hardly wait!

1. Finally live under the same roof as my husband!
2. Move to Germany
3. Live on a military base
4. Be more independent (defiantly learning to do this already)
5. Finish my first full year of college
6. Get a part time job
7. Learn German (I will be living there for 3 years)
8. Spend Valentines Day in Paris
9. Take my husband to Ireland
10. Meet new people
11. I know everyone says this but eat healthy!
12. Work out for at least 30 minutes a day- so far so good
13. Come home for Carla's wedding
14. Appreciate my husband more
15. Get back into reading
16. Send care packages to my nieces...advice from Kimmy so they don't forget me
17. Keep in touch with my family more

So I think that is a good start for now! I can only do so much..lol.

Germany and other stuff!

Germany is fast approaching! My husband comes home next Friday and will be here for about 2 weeks or so, not exactly sure yet, and then he will be leaving! I'm still hopeful that I will be going with him at the same time, but who knows! I'm trying not to get my heart set on it because I don't want to be dissapointed. But anyways, I just can't believe this is all happening so fast! Jeeze....couldn't they have atleast ease me into this whole military wife moving around and being away from family thing! Don't get me wrong, we made the decision together for him to join the army and I am excited to enjoy the experience of Europe! It's just alot to obsorb! I am so excited for him to come home and this time we won't be running around like chickens with our heads cut off!!! lol....We will just get to spend some quality time together and enjoy it before he or we leave. I'm gratefull that I get to have him home again. I have been spending as much time with my baby neices (Emily, Madi, and Kaydence), my sister and my bestie Carla. I will miss all of them SO much. Carla is getting married this summer and I am going to try my hardest to be here for the wedding....It just will be a hard decision cause I know I can't just pick up and come back, so I do have to plan accordingly. I want to be here but what about other holidays and stuff...international flying isn't too cheap! Once a year is all I will do because I want to explore Europe too! Man oh man....maybe I'm getting ahead of my self. I should just take everything one step at a time. :)

On another note I have a friend that I keep attempting to hang out with because I will miss him when we move but it seems like every attempt to hang out that I make, keeps getting rejected! I mean should I just give up and except that maybe they are worth my time? Or keep trying? I have mixed feelings....1. I have made SEVERAL attempts to hang out 2. I am leaving and will miss him! Oh I don't know! Maybe I will just wait and see what happens..... :)

I found it!

I finally found a nintendo wii!! So excited! And i found a wii fit!!! Okay thats all!

Kim has inspired me!!-edited

My amazing friend kimmy has lost 16lbs...jealous!! So I have decided to get my lazt butt of the couch! I am in the process (have to find one) of buying a wii and the wii fit! My sister in law has one so for now I will use it! I want to loose 90lbs, eventually!!! Anyway, go Kimmy!

Okay so I realized 90lbs would be too much! Haha....i want to weigh 155 (healthy weight for my height) so I have 49lbs to loose...haha wow!

Two weeks fly by way too fast!!!

So my husband left, already! He was here December 19th (his 24th birthday!) thru January 2nd. I know he was here for all the major holidays and I should just appreciate the fact that I got to see him! But I can't, call me selfish....but 2 weeks just wasn't enough. All we did was run around from one family members' house to another. I had one day with him to my self, just one day! Even on the one day I had we were supposed to be at his grandmothers celebrating Christmas, so I spent the day feeling guilty that I was "hogging" him, as his sister put it! I knew this wouldn't be easy and I should just suck it up cause it's only going to get worse from here. On another note I still haven't found anything out about Germany, it's just a little frustrating. It wouldn't be so bad if i didn't get asked about it on a daily basis......When I know, you will know!!Okay so I'm done whining and complaining (for now).

I must say though it was great having him here and we did go see my new favorite movie of all time...Marley & Me. It is so cute! I cryed my eyes out at the end...all I could think of is my dog Roxie dying.....sad :(! But still hands down a great movie. Even Brandon liked it, and he hates girly movies.